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It's true that I'm strong,
but there's only so much I can take
before even a heart like mine
eventually breaks.

Pushed to the edge
time after time again...
who do you think you are?
You, who call me "friend."

I'm just so sick,
so tired of the abuse.
All of this emotional SHIT that
you don't know you're putting me through.

So I'll just stand here.
What else can I do?
You who call me "friend,"
where your promises ever true?

It's true I used to be strong,
but now I begin to break.
There's only so much disappointment
a heart like mine can take.
...fuck...everything...

-September 2008

Enjoy.
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armymanski Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
It is strange how people will claim to be your "Friend" and yet be the same people that time and time again stab you in the back in the smallest of ways. Yet enough stabs still lead to a fatality.

I like how you can say "fuck everything" and then turn around with a smile and say "Enjoy". What is stranger is that I look back at myself doing the same.
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Lol, thanks for the comment. This was during a very...dark...time of my life. Not the darkest, but still pretty dim. The "enjoy" is how I close pretty much all of my deviation comments, and it's meant differently every time. In this case, it was a very bittersweet smile.
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armymanski Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
We all have those dark and dim moments in life. It is good once we are able to overcome them and see the light in life. But the interesting thing is the best writings come from when your down. More emotion comes out or so it seems.
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I also find that some of the best writings come from when you're overjoyed, as well. Some of the greatest love poems, for example.
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armymanski Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You know, that is a good point. Love is a great source of emotion. Unfortunately it is one that doesn't come easily.
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Silvaz Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2009
Ow...ch... false friends.... never good... :hug: It's a dark, dark, world out there, with not enough light but if you can find it...

(no the light I am referring to is NOT Christianity, lol, I'm an atheist...)
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
I'm more...agnostic, I guess. I believe in God, but my beliefs come from about every other religion out there. I don't believe he's active in this world, but that he does exist.
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Silvaz Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2009
You're sort of like a doubtful Christian. Agnostics are waiting for proof.
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Meh. I'm not necessarily Christian, either, though.
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Silvaz Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2009
You're yourself...
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Teehee. Yup.
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Silvaz Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2009
Hehe me too
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Gear-n-Sproket Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
Mags, honestly if you need a friend to talk to i will listen, ooo's
don't let the world tear you down like this mags, it's cruel, dark, full of oppression, sorrow; quite frankly it's bull shit but that is what makes you stronger to over come all this, hun i know your getting tried of jusmping hurdles on your own, it gets tiring, but you can't stop, cause if you stop the world it's self will eat you up in dispare, and it will conqure you; don't let it do that, you've made it this far hun, you can't look back and wait for somethings that will take for ever if they even appear... you know? my whole point in briefing is you gotta keep movin hun, and if you need some one to talk to seriously mags i will listen i always have and i always will...take care of your self hun and i'll ttylz
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MBryn Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008  Professional Writer
Eff those people. You deserve better.

This will be my mantra from now on.
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Ninja4Hire646 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008
it's certainly a different tone than your poetry usually takes, from what i've read. is something going seriously wrong?
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
My entire life...is crumbling. Thank you for noticing the tone change. I'm glad somebody did.
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Ninja4Hire646 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008
How could I not? What's going wrong?
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
My friends are only my friends when they want to be. they come to me when they have problems, but won't listen when I have problems. They never think about me. I'm homesick and can never get a hold of my family when I need em. I like somebody but am too chicken to tell them. Too scared of getting hurt again. and that's only part of what's going on.
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Ninja4Hire646 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008
That's pretty bad. I've started realizing recently the only reason I'm friends with the people with whom I'm friends is that I've always been friends with them. so, to a degree, I can understand your frustration. and I've had the same thing happening to me as you do in "To call or not to call." Occasionally when I see someone I know in the hall, I'll purposely turn away so that I don't have to talk to them. It's like, i want so hard to have someone to like and to like me, but i avoid people at every instance when I could grow close. Is that sort of what your talking about? Sorry, I'm talking too much now... As far as the person in whom you're interested, I know it hurts when things don't work out, but... If you're ever going to be with someone permanently, you'll need to take a chance eventually. And even if it doesn't work, it can leave you with great memories. But... I almost always suck at giving advice, so i probably wouldn't even take it...
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Jamerous Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008
Think I get it dude. From the wrong end like.
Still, love it :D
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MagpieVon Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
thanks.
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